When confidence grows, but self-doubt still lingers
Do you ever find yourself waiting for the moment when you will finally feel confident enough?
Confident enough to trust your decisions without second-guessing. Confident enough to sit in the room without quietly wondering whether you are missing something important. Confident enough to feel settled in your role in a way that feels permanent.
Many clinicians assume that confidence comes with time.
That after enough experience, supervision, and training, the self-doubt will eventually settle. That one day, the work will feel solid in a way that no longer wobbles.
When that day does not come, it can be unsettling.
I often hear clinicians speak about imposter feelings as something they expected to outgrow. When those feelings persist years into practice, they can bring a different kind of discomfort. Not just doubt, but confusion. Shouldn’t I feel more confident by now?
I think some level of imposter feelings follows many of us throughout our careers. For me, they changed shape over time.
As I became more comfortable and confident in the clinical setting, I began to shift my work. Like many clinicians, this involved moving into operational tasks, management, and supervision, not all at once, but gradually.
And I can tell you, each shift brought with it that familiar internal question. Why me. Am I really qualified for this responsibility?
Each time, I learned, grew, and developed my skills. And over time, that voice became less frequent. Quieter. Less convincing.
But it never disappeared entirely.
Every so often, it still shows up. That familiar discomfort. The subtle sense of being exposed. And I have had to learn how to sit with that feeling, rather than respond to it automatically.
In the past, it might have pushed me to shift roles again. Or to overwork. Or to feel as though I needed to prove myself. To add another qualification, another certificate, another line to my resume, just to reassure myself that I was, in fact, qualified enough.
What I have learned is that impostor feelings often resurface during times of growth. Not because we are incapable, but because we are stretching into new territory.
What is often missed is that imposter feelings generally do not signal a lack of competence. In many cases, they reflect an increasing awareness of the complexity of the work and the responsibility it carries.
As perspective grows, certainty often softens. You see more clearly how much sits outside your control. The work stops feeling simple, not because you are less capable, but because you understand it more fully.
Confidence in clinical work rarely looks like certainty. More often, it looks like the ability to act thoughtfully while still holding doubt. To make decisions without guarantees. To tolerate not knowing, without rushing toward reassurance.
Imposter feelings, in this sense, are not always something we have to “get rid of”. Sometimes they are a sign that the work still matters. That you are still engaged, still learning, still responsive to what the work asks of you.
The task is not to eradicate self-doubt entirely. It is to learn how to carry it without letting it dictate your next move.
To Sit With This Week
- Notice when imposter feelings show up, and what seems to trigger them.
- Reflect on whether those feelings are signalling a sense of incompetence or whether you are entering into an area of growth.
- Consider how you tend to respond when self-doubt appears. Do you pull back? Do you overcompensate? Do you feel the need to seek constant reassurance? Or can you see it as a challenge and an opportunity for growth?
- Pay attention to moments where you act thoughtfully despite feeling uncertain.
- Gently remind yourself that doubt and competence can coexist (you’ve got to love some good old-fashioned dialectic thinking here!).
Thank you for sitting with me in the clinical space this week.
Warmly,